Wheels

I need a car. I can’t remember if I’ve mentioned this before or not… it seems like I must have only because it’s been at the top of my list for a while. So, remember how I was so excited to be learning how to drive a clutch again on S.’s little Subaru? Well, I’m proud to say it only took me 4 months to ruin a brand new clutch and only $700 to buy a new one. I think that perhaps this, more then anything has been my great motivator in moving my butt to get my own car. That and the fact that it’s hard at 28 years of age to ask to borrow a car so you can drive to see your boyfriend… Oh well, I’m so lucky that I’ve got such nice family that they’ve let me these past couple of months or so. Anyway… I’m in the market now and looking harder then ever… er… actually, I’m bugging M & D to look harder then ever for me. All I need is a junker/clunker with 4 wheels and an engine that will move my butt 16 miles to J.’s house and back… oh, and the occasional trip to Utah to pick up some of my fun stuff from my storage unit. Now really, is that asking so much?

Wild Fun

This morning was kind of a crazy morning. S. had to go up to Seattle at 5:30 am so he was going to drop me off at the Transit Center so I could catch a bus instead of hitching a ride all the way to P-Town like I normally do. This is fine except I don’t have to be at work till 8am. I ended up arriving down town a lot earlier then 8am because I took an Express bus -which is a lovely thing when you’re a Public Transit Commuter. It snowed last night so I had to find a place down town that I could hang out at that was going to be nice and comfortable and warm. It turns out that Borders café opens up nice and early and has plush, easy chairs you can sit in and – here’s the dangerous part – the café serves hot chocolate! With whipped cream! And sprinkles! I felt so wild ordering a hot chocolate at a book store café and then sitting there and drinking it with people thinking it was coffee and all… I’m a dork I know, but it was wild, delicious, fun. It did suck though having to wake up about 4:30’ish to catch that bus to get that hot chocolate and the only thing that makes THAT okay, was that I had the most relaxing and lovely weekend bumming around with J. I don’t think from Friday to Sunday we were ever out of our PJ’s. We did catch up on a lot of video game playing and movies and snacks though, which was good. Because neither of us have a car, we can’t go anywhere or spend any money but I think – sometimes, that’s just nice.

Wishes

I wish that change came about just by writing down a plan. I’ve discovered about myself that I actually love to write out plans. I love the process of thinking of a problem – something I’d like to change – and then writing out detailed plans on how that change has got to happen. I love to make budgeted plans for paying down debt. I love to make menus for healthy eating, work out schedules and routines. I love to make shopping lists and to do lists for getting my life organized. I love to make plans for saving up for something and plans for paying for something. I love to make lists for weekend get-a-ways and for dream vacations. I love to work and re-work over lists and plans I’ve made before – trying to get them just perfect – perhaps finally coming up with something that actually would work. For all the effort that I put into making up these good life plans for all these good life changes, I wish that was all it took. It sucks that you actually have to DO what you write down. You actually have to STICK to the budget, the grocery list, the packing list. You actually have to EAT the healthy menu and DO the work out routines. Huh, where’s the fun in that?

Fresh Start

I had wanted to start the year out strong by writing more on here… but as it seems is usually the case, I’m lucky to get this one posted in the spare minute I find between ragged breaths from running around crazy. So, quick update – still here in Portland/Vancouver area and still enjoying it. Especially the part where there is no snow on the ground. Hate the part where it doesn’t really matter because I don’t have a car to drive around anyway, but I’m dealing with that. – Should have something soon… I hope… Still working in Portland and still trying to get the motivation to look for another job. I guess when I hate this one bad enough I’ll move on. Or when the Company’s Bankruptcy is finalized and I lose my job anyway. Still dating J. and still loving every minute of it. Dating someone is a lot harder then they make it look in the movies but I’m happy to report it’s also a lot more fun and a lot more fulfilling. He is my dream man – beautiful tender hearted punk who writes me songs and draws me the most beautiful artistic drawings. I don’t really have any big adventures on the horizon right now which makes my life feel a little off balance, but I’m finding that just trying to make it day to day is exciting enough. I do wish I had my snow shoes or my snow board up here with me but I can’t do anything about that today so I won’t worry about it. I should plan a trip down to Utah to pick some of those things up – but the car situation makes that tough. Oh well, like I said, won’t worry about that today…